It's crunch-time. On Tuesday I'm being observed by the deputy head: my opportunity to show why it was such a fantastically brilliant idea for the school to give me a job, or my opportunity to fall flat on my face and hang my head in shame.

The deputy had asked to observe me a while back but had almost seemed to have forgotten about it, until my mentor reminded her (thanks for that). Luckily I've been given the opportunity to pick the lesson I want seeing, so I'm going for my foundation year tens, first thing in the morning - with the candlestick.

If everything goes well I'll look like a hero. If it all goes to pot then I'll look like an idiot - still. I just hope it doesn't start snowing half way through the lesson, or is really windy, or is really sunny, or really cold, or... in fact any type of weather other then grey and boring.